I started out the day to Zoey scratching at my door, which was strange because she should have been in the kitchen and back room where there is tile and access to the backyard. Lately Zoey has become a hurdler, she jumps the barier almost daily and sits outside our bedroom door until one of us wakes up. It's fine by me because being greeted by her makes my day, she is always so excited to see me, just like when I would go visit her at the pound. Zoey and I have this strange connection, one saturday last year Brian and I were driving around looking for fun things at garage sales when out of the blue I begged him to go to the shelter. We always talked about getting a second dog and he told me when I stopped working full time and started school again we could. That day we walked through three rooms of cages upon cages of dogs, none of which really felt right for me, and for us. That is until the VERY last cage, in this cage were two little white dogs and a chihuahua, they were strays and couldn't go up for adoption for three days. I begged Brian for her and he said no. But being that I fell in love with her at first sight I went back every single day to visit her. Everytime I came up to the cage she ran up and licked my hand and stayed near me, if I walked away she hid in the back and no matter who else came up, she never came to the front of the cage. It was fate. Needless to say I showed up very early to adopt her and she has become an amazing addition to our family!
Today was full of doctors appointments and going to the dentist, I figured that if the outlook of the day was probably not so great I would at least dress up cute and feel good about myself. I picked a cute top, skinny jeans, some cute shoes and curled my hair. This is the most I have put into getting ready in quite a while. First stop was the dentist, which is my least favorite, but I met a new dentist, Dr.Drew who complimented my shoes and was not to bad to look at. Brian had a great time making fun of the fact that I found my dentist good looking.
The next appointment was with another OBGYN. Most people don't know that last summer Brian and I found out we are going to be unable to have children on our own. Due to my heart conditions and the surgeries I had in high school, pregnancy for me comes a long with a high risk of something happening to me or the baby. Through out the last year we have been coming to terms with this and doing a lot of research on adoption so we can start the process the last semester Brian is in school. I am still greiving with the loss of being able to become pregnant, but I am becomming more and more excited to be able to help children that don't have families. And give them more love than they will ever know. The doctor was great, she made a lot of jokes, took great interest in our lives and whats going on and I felt very comfortable to now have a plan for the next few months.
I came home to do some crafting and painting, it was great fun. I love it, even though it has completely taken over my kitchen table.
Brian is my rock and through out everything he is there to make me laugh in the toughest of situations. The third week I knew him he visited me in the hospital two nights in a row, and I think that was really the moment that I fell in love with him. We have a lot of fun together doing all kinds of things, from road trips to watching movies.
Hopefully this summer I will be able to volunteer at the hospital, I would love to help with the NICU or play games or read to kids that can't leave their rooms. We shall see, we shall see!
I have a migraine now, I'm going to go watch a rerun of Gossip Girl and drool over all the beautiful and amazing clothes involved in that show. And fall asleep to dreams of the days everything in my life falls completely into place, and dreams of my prince charming and darling little dogs.
